This morning was frustrating. Not going to make any bones about it. It is difficult for me to sit in church, in the audience having nothing to do with the service. For years I have had a hand in the creative process that went into the development of our Sunday morning service, even getting to teach on a semi regular basis. Through all the transitions at church my role became less and less. Nothing bad, just different styles, philosophy and view on the roles of the staff. Again different is not necessarily wrong, just different. But I could not live in the current “different” and had to step away.
I now know how Kurt Warner felt his previous two NFL seasons. Standing on the sidelines knowing what you can do, how you can contribute, how you can make a difference and help the team reach its goals… and yet all you are ask to do is hold a clipboard. I WANT THE BALL!!! I need the ball. God created me to take the ball and run with it, not just sit and watch the game.
I am glad that I feel this way. It just reaffirms that I am heading in the right direction. I don’t think a church would want a pastor who was scared to take the ball and run with it. However, the waiting is what is getting to me. I am not content to just wait. I can wait on God but I have to be doing something productive in the mean time. So, any pastors out there ever been in my situation? What did you do to keep from going nuts while waiting for that next adventure, that next ministry that God was leading you to? What do you do while you are waiting to get the call and get the ball?